Monday, October 22, 2007
SADLY, ive gained weight!
This whole week, ive been indulging myself with foods continually.
This afternoon was REALLY such a good damn example.
Every three hours, i'd grab carbohydate foods from the kitchen and gobble it up into my stomach.
i wonder how much EXTRA calories have been
swinging around in my belly. grr!
p/s: i was supposed to have a mini-rest break from studying but instead, it ended up with meal-breaks! graaah! how dumb!anw.. will be out studying with fadhlina, khai's girlfriend.
and oh yes, tmr shall be the
initial date-meet. hoho! lol
10am-830pm lib-studying again!
nyaii! how wonderful!
p/s: a study spot which is opened up in bedok lib, specially for students to mug is reallie condusive ;) go and try mugging there! 100% worth it! =)
When time is right ♥
10:00 PM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Well, i have to agree that NOT all Scarf girls are naturely good at heart.
Sometimes they may be WORST than the girls without wearing scarfs!
ps: im saying about CERTAIN girls with scarfs; not all (: for they wear scarf for the sake of wearing. (perhaps, they were forced to, i donno) I put down my ego by telling her that perhaps this eid mubarak may be the witness of our 'forgive and forget' about whatever that had happened btween me, her and MRbf all this years,
despite knowing that shes the one who had made up the hell lot of chaos since the beginning. Inspite of seeking for forgiveness and try to mend each and every single wrong doings, she replied me with "uhhh.. ryte..''
(perhaps she thought that my says what jus a piece of shit or prolly she was too serious thinking of the negative side that she guessed this will never happen) lol!
p/s: dear miss, you noe what, sometimes i wonder if 'positive-attitude' is in you. or perhaps, are u trying to tell peo that u are a sort of person whos always give up on urself by carrying a negative attitude in you? whatever it is, remember one thing. sometimes we have to fade the negative thinking in us and let the positive thinking takes place in our mind. By then, the life of ours will be more meaningful and joy.
(if u noe what i mean coz i trueli understand what u mean from the reply of urs!)And oh, adding to that, sometimes i wonder if this kind of people know what respect is. or perhaps, they do not what respect is all about. prolly they only knew respect by the name but NOT by the meaning. And its very sad to know that this kind of peo do exist. and the best part is, they look genuinely NICE on the outside. Sometimes i wonder if they ever look into themself and ask a personal question,
"Do i act the way i should be like how i present myself to the public?" or "
Is there any way that i did or someting in my character that is contradict to how i present myself to the world?" Well, i do wonder you noe.
I was trying to resolve the hatreds and the misunderstanding. Eventho i noe i wasnt at fault. i didnt create this misery initially. Still, as a friend or perhaps as human being, i took the responsibility to tell her that let bygones be bygones. And YES, well-manneredly, i treated her as my friend. i showed her respect like how i did to others. But what i got in return was... " hey ghurl..." Not once. Not twice. But severals. And hey! i got a name, mind you. what if i were to call u.. ''hey ghurl.." or " eh pompan.."
To be honest, i reallie despise this kind of ill-mannered peo. And hell yeah! ur personallity is truely contradict to how u present urself to the public. i did say this once in my previous blog. now, im saying it again for the second time. And now, i realle have lost my respect for you. TOTALLY!
And.. i noe very well that u are trying to be on top of me.. to tell me that " hey im way better than u" but hello! ive olways been sticking to a philosophy which says "NO ONE IS BETTER THAN U UNLESS U LET THEM BE" and.. yes! im still sticking to it. so DONT ever try to ruin my life EVER again. U did it once. u did it Twice. And i gave in with the thought that lets forgive and forget but now.. im sorrie. uve just ruined my respect for you, GHURL!
I can go on and on.. but im not that mean like some peo (:
When time is right ♥
1:54 AM
Monday, October 15, 2007
Hari raya was awesome.
eventhough i didnt prepare that much due to the coming of Os.
still, the 1st and 2nd dae was utmost happening! haha (=
Pictures shall be put up real soon.
perhaps in the picture album that will be posted in before long.
during the hari raya outing...
conversation btwn me and pkcik hassan
pakcik hassan: nanti lps exam ain nak g mane 'tuk holidae? tioman ke? desaru? hiking?
ain: Hiking!!! ain nak panjat2!
pakcik: oki. kite pg gunung ledang. nnti pkcik hassan ngn ayah plan kan ok?
ain: set! =DWOOHOO!! AND I CANT WAIT LAR SEYY! (=
Anw i realised something. Every aidilfitri, a same old story will be said again without fail haha.
whenever it arrive and when all families come together, one common thing they will share and talk about. which is ME. lol.
they'l just talk non stop about how fat and naughty i was in my early years and how ive grown into a lady ryte now. haha and oh, i have to admit that i was once a 'tomboy' dots.. i hate girls' stuffs. no wonder i dont play with dolls. instead i played with balls, climbing on high levels and jumping down from the peak that i got myself injured every now and then.. haha.. darn, when i reminisce back those moments, i wonder if that was realiie me. haha.. sometimes, i do feel like returning back to the past and become mischief like how i used to be. lol! (:
Anw this few days, someone has somehow brightened up my day with his once again presence.
Somehow, i could feel the SAME breeze of air that had once blew upon me a few years ago.... (:
If only we can be in this state long enough to crave a sweet smile to our unique friendship....if onli.... for i dont wish history to be repeated again.
When time is right ♥
2:20 AM
Thursday, October 11, 2007
For the very first time in the three and a half years period of time,
this's the very first tyme i saw fire arose from a happy-go-lucky friendship.
Before this, everything seemed as though they are in their own fantasy-gaga world where everything seemed so enthusiastically hyper as if they are in a sky high.
(yes im exaggerating it. Coz thats how ultra-crazy their friendship was)However, a new episode bagan. it started since the dae before. The next morning, the spark of the fire was starting to reduce bit by bit when suddenly a fire just arose from their own egotism.
To be continued..
sorrows. griefs. regrets overwhelmed me. i apologise for the wrongly accused i did on u...Anw, studying at home from morn till noon and from night till dawn is much more productive rather than studying in school where theres only distruptions from the noise pollution! graaah! (and oh including the non-stop lectures) LOL!
When time is right ♥
12:53 AM
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
the dae will come. no more laughters. no more joys. say goodbye.
When time is right ♥
12:24 AM
Sunday, October 7, 2007
A Token Of Appreciation!
it was a great pleasure to noe that i actually have fallen for it. yes. i literally in love wit that thing. Before this, whenever i see it, i would tend to skip and ignore it. i was just too annoyed by the presence of it. reallie. but like wad peo say, if u hate some thing to a great extend, you will somehow fall greatly for it somedae. haha. and yes, i have to admit that im in love wit it.
Trigonometry was a hell of a disaster once for me. but now, ill hunt for it first whenever i study maths. And yes, of all the topics in mathematics, i have lots of confidence in trigo compared to the others hoho (:
Was supposed to have tuition yesterdae but someting amiss came in between. thus, ive got to pospone it. sadsad :( well, i donnoe why but im so looking forward for the next math tuition. lol!
Life was interesting these days. Sometimes, some things just happen the way it wants to be without giving us the sign that it will happen. Miraculously, its like a dream come true for me :)
Yet still, i have to stop fantasizing like before coz i noe it'll end soon. like how it used to be (:
Anyway on the serious note, i was actually saddened by words of a friend. yes a friend whom i treat as a somebody whom i can rely on. Every little secrets i have will surely be shared with him. Hes just like a diary to me. Whenever i feel down, hes the 1st one that will came running tru my mind. Frankly, my world would somehow turn blue without him. Sadly, he thought i was taking him as a granted.
You're never a rubish bin to me my dear. Ive never treat you like one before. never. whenever i turn to u , my intention was true that ure the one i need at that moment. theres no other agenda to it. For i believe a true friend will never treat her own bestie like the above told.Yet still, was quite surprising when that very friend of mine told me that he has no other choice but to accept it. Friend, thanks. thanks for believing in me despite having that thoughts :)Get to go now!
A WEEEK MORE TO STUDY BREAK. WOOHOO! (:
When time is right ♥
10:08 AM
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Factual
You can only push a girl away for so long until she walks out of your life on her own. So becareful and make sure this is what you want because once she turns around she isn't coming back.
When time is right ♥
12:03 AM
Monday, October 1, 2007
Ignorance Is Abliss!
And so here begins, a new fresh start.
innitially, i dont feel like having a blog.
but as time passes by, i somehow feel the need of having it.
dont ask me why. i wont elaborate further on it.
Many peo asked me what had happen to my blog?
why did i choose to delete it?
And i simply replied them with a simple ans; My Os are coming. thus, ive to stop blogging and go for a hiatus.
Well, to a certain extend, it may be somehow true. but in an actual fact, i was actually 'running away'. For i believe, blogging is somehow a source where peo can update themselves about my life. hmm. Okie. in short, i do things for a reason. thus, i dont blog for no reason. and if i blog, theres certainly a reason for it. well, like i say, don ask me why. coz im not gonna elaborate further more on it. and yes, ive got my own reason to it.
ll try my verrry best to hinder my fantasy. ill pray that everything will come to an end. for i dont wish to be fooled again. like how i was ever since back then. i may come. but i will go. like how u did to me before. ill TRY to. even if i hav to shed some tears.
When time is right ♥
7:23 PM
