Saturday, May 31, 2008
HAPPY 2OTH BIRTHDAY MRBF!(:Since 310588....
A birthday is a million moments, each holding a promise of fulfillment of ur dreams, & accomplishments some special plans..
May GOD decorate each GOLDEN RAY OF THE SUN reaching u with wishes of Success, Happiness and Prosperity for you, Wish you a Super-Duper Happy Birthday!(:
p/s: i hope u'd like e gift i gave you eventhough it didnt turn out that awesome(:
once again, happy birthday. i love you...
On the other note, i have something in mind that i wish to express the everything out.
I always thought loving someone was the greatest feeling, but I realised tat loving a friend is even better, we lose ppl we love but we never lose true friends. ''
But somehow, i totally felt that im loosing a friend. and thus, im beginning to lose myself as well. Yea, that friend is someone whom i cherise most. Someone who could actually speak to my heart. Someone whos far yet near. Someone whom i see everything in. A special friend. Yes, thats what that friend is. But somehow, theres a feeling saying, its the end. A full stop has always been trying to occur, but it was always to no avail. Instead, the friendship grew stronger over the years. Perhaps, this is the time. As due to the fact that i finally have the courage to bring myself up and tear that photo, which was supposed to be given to that friend on e 6th of june, together with a note. It was destroyed. Everything then shall be destroyed.
You knew, tht wasnt me. And im not gonna be me again, ever again.
Ironically,p/s: this WORLD, where everything seems UNCERTAIN, only one thing is DEFINITE. You'll always be my FRIEND, beyond WORDS, beyond TIME & beyond DISTANCE!no matter how much hatred u have towards me...
When time is right ♥
12:28 AM
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Life has been hectic.
Loads of thinking have been made.
Annalysed each and every of them.
Still, nothing seems lull.
Truly, it cant be denied that all this while, i was just putting a facade on the front.
The feeling of agony somehow aguished me. It was tormenting, no lies!
Perhaps, the intense tension, which actually has led me to this.
Hopefully, soon, every thing would come to en end.
Every night, before having the eternal rest,
I'd always look upon what future would hold for me.
The place where ill be at 5 years down the road.
The things that ill be engaged in a decade later. etc.
Somehow, i dont feel at ease. Or rather, Ive yet to satisfy on some things.
Perhaps, there is a reason for everything; A hidden blessing.
A dream; not just any random stargaze.
When time is right ♥
12:10 PM
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Dreams.
- A series of mental images and emotions occurring during sleep
Whats urs?
As for me, im still searching for one. its hard to define actually. Sometimes i wonder, are dreams, visions that will happen in e future or just the work of the devil itself?
Well, enough of that, lets proceed on to other things.
Somehow, these few days, ive been struck by torrent of questions. Questions about beauty, appearance. Whats with all that?
Are those terms above one of the factors leading to love or perhaps which occurs in just crushes? Something which wont lasts. Something which is temporary. Something which has no permanent in it.
And whats with comparing others? And then cristicise the person. Even if it was known that oneself is being made by god and has no authority to set his/her own visual aspect.
Well whatever it is, i truly support the statement which says if one truly love his/her partner, no matter what they look like, he/she will still love her/his partner undying-ly. Regardless of heights, weights, skin color, appearance wise, fashion wise etc.
Ive ranted my says. And done with it.
Alright then, get to go.
will be meeting Tini for some hours of revision afterwards.
Takecare!(:
When time is right ♥
10:14 AM
Monday, May 26, 2008
First and foremost,
HAPPY 26TH SWEETHEART!yea,
4 years, 5 months!(:
Luckily before heading out, dining with the family, i did some exercises.
yea, 50 times '
pull-up'. (pardon me, ive no idea
what e heck its name is) haha(:
Understand-understood, taking pictures is ibu's thing.
So yea, by inference, it can be seen tht it was taken in the MIDDLE of the CARPARK!
haha LOL!
Been quite awhile since i last ate at simpang Bedok!
Delectable. just love the foods there(:
UNFORTUNATELY, my sate boi was out of sight.
well yea, both SISkaseh and myself were srutinizing for him but much to our disappointment, he wasnt around at tht point of time.. hoho...
p/s: BF.... now MY turn to cuci mata! haha.. revenge is sweeeet, dont u think so? HAHA(:
After which, the four of us proceeded to Nenek's place. AND I ATE AGAIN!
Alahaaai...Initially, i thought of giving my tummy a break from foods BUT the minute i saw
muthabak,
roti kirai and
goreng pisang, i suddenly went salivating at the sight of those delicious-looking food.
And then, off my finger went, grabbing those foods. One by one, i consumed. YUMMY!
woooh, superb!(:
So from nenek's house, we headed off to vivo since SISkaseh wanna buy her converse shoe.
And guess what, WE ATE AGAIN! this time round, MACdonald was savoured! haha
Awesome yet DISAPPOINTING for me.
COS I FAILED THE MISSION OF DIETING!
sobs.
On a sad note, kaseh's leaving us for her cambodia's trip this coming Sunday.
for 5 days. YEA 5 FREAKING DAYS! argh!
Im gonna be a lonely gal by the night then.
No one to hug and be hugged by.
No one to gossip and fight with.
No one to tickle and be tickled by.
No one to laugh with and be laughed by.
haiss...
Really, i donno what's life gonna be like without that dearest of mine.
i noe im gonna miss her loads!
Shes NOT only the sister, but THE BESTFRIEND as well.
The one whom i look up to despite her, being the younger one.
COS, one thing im sure of, we have the same maturity level. HAHA(:
REALLY, at times, i find that she can be more mature than me. LOL!
but whatever it is, im still the ELDEST! haha :)
SIS, HOW CAN U EVER HAVE THE THINKING OF LEAVING UR LOVELY KAKAK BEHIND?sobs!
P/S: im sure u gonna miss me when ure there, esp my ''come syg, peluk akak' when midnight comes. LOL!haha well, surely not, since shes gonna be accompanied by her darling clans to hip-hip-hooray with HAHA(:
Okie, thts enuf for e day's entry. its 0535.
Syuruk is like approx an hour time.
I'd better go, cleansing myself first.
Takecare!
When time is right ♥
5:15 AM
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Congkak was okay.
Not that spine-chilling like how it has been told.
Well, overall i shall give a thumbs-up to the audio's system.
Prolly thts the reason why it seems scary(:
Soon after the movie, both Elfyee and i headed Whitesand MAC.
Main reason was simply because since Dee cant hang out with us due to her working schedule,
we made e decision to study there so as to still have the communication btwn e three of us.
And we did during Dee's break time. Hell yea, we made chaos, louder than having just the threesome. haha
Today was simply awesome, having the GFs by the side(:
They're just like the soul of the heart =)
i love u gals!
Anw yea, guess what.
BF apparently seems wierd today. YET sweet. hehs!
According to him, he dreamt tht we were engaged b4 he went for his NS.
And we then got married right after he had completed his 2.5 years of serving.
haha(:
And yea from there, all his messages were like... 'Bile nk tunang ehh?'
haha =)
SMS-coversation(:Ain:U.. leh tny.. Np cara u syg me arini mcm berbeza g2.. mcm u syg me lebih g2..? heeMRbf:Haha.. tah.. agknya de feeling of nk tunang dgn u da dtg kot.. hahaha bluek. slh ke?hahahaah!
really, i was speechless at tht moment. haha.
Bf, u macam2 laa! haha..
So well anyway.. planned with bf tht the only time i'd get myself engaged is when ive reached 21
if i lead my way to poly or 20 if i successfully get myself into tht instituition dream of mine. And after which, saying bout marriage, ive decided to tie the knots once ive gotten the degree of that course of my choice. which perhaps by then, i shall be in my 26.. yea.. haha (:
insyaallah(:
p/s: BF..... bersabar laaah kamu yeee!! hahahah(:I aint a substitute, mind you!
When time is right ♥
11:40 PM
A story of a girl who just realised how foolish she was.She fought hard to restrain her tears.
But the pain was too torment to bear.
Without noticing, beads of tears suddenly ran down her cheeks.
The pain was as if searing through her like a razor.
She couldnt take it, no more.
Her love was once unconditional.
She loved him too much.
Eventhough it had never been expressed out before.
It was kept discreet since aeons ago.
To her, without him, whats the use of living.
Definitely, the world would seem blue and dim.
Despite e fact that there's other light component to shine upon her,
sill deep inside, she would always yearn for him.
Until one night.
That night, her love shattered.
The feeling was forever gone, burried in her own agony.
A decision was made, which was to move on.
And to just let bygones remain bygones.
Her love was once pure and true.
Eventhough it meant fantasy in reality.
All she ever wanted for was just a mere concern.
Well, its too late to apologise.
What goes around comes around(:
i supposed she was still young at that point of time when e feelings for him developed.Maybe, she was way blinded by him. i donnoe bout wat. but i supposed so.Well yea, once and for all, im fortunate to have someone like BF who loves me true(: i love you....6 more days!(: woohoo!CONGKAK with Elfyee afterwards in the afternooon! yay!
When time is right ♥
2:44 AM
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
ITS
FULLLLL MOOON!!!!
BEAUTIFUL!(:
someone please bring me to the moon..
and let me vary myself into
SAILOR MOOOON!!!WOOHOO!(:
Yes, im thaaat bad when it comes to taking of pictures.
pardon me for that(:
Pretty sure, BF's skills are muchhh way better! i noe!
just keep them to urself and dont tell me(!!!) cos tht will not only drop my water face but also it will be an asset for bf to make fun of me! HMPH! haha (:
So anyway. Studied till 7. Thought of staying till like 845 but UNFORTUNATELY, bf ORDERED me to pack my bag as soon as possible. grr! was reluctant to at first but no choice, still have to pack evrything up in the end(:
And oh, never would i noe tht ill be PUNKED just
like that.BASKET NOE! Asked bf where are we heading to. So with full of confidence, bf replied tht Khairullah has invited us to his birthday party today. Thus, we're gona head there. And i BELIEVED.
Afterwhich, bf laughed and told me tht it was a prankish lie. haiya!
he then explained again tht we're gonna meet azeez up at his work place as he wanna take the CD GAME from azeez. AND AGAIN, I BELIEVED! wa piaaang ahh!!
Really, i think something was wrong with me at tht point of time.
LOL!
p.s: TINI..... AKU RASA AKU DA FEELING E STRESSNESS LA SAMPI OTAK AKU JD BIOL!! AND U BETTER TAG MY BLOG WHEN U VIEW IT AGAIN EHH! WHICH IS NOW!!!(this applies to u when u read this cos by the time u're reading this, is already NOW for u) HAHA lol! =)
So anyhoos, both BF and i headed Princess and we watched CHOCOLATE.
Really, i have not even 10 cents with me. So i cried out,
'NO, Im not going cos ive no penny with me' LOL! well luckily, hes being kind today and treat me evrything, be it e ticket or foods. THANKS BF, i love u!(:
p.s: oh wait, correction, hes always being kind and good to me. its just tht the matter always lies in me. sorry for every mistakes i made tht hurts u real bad, time and again, bf.
i love you(:
So anw, chocolate was FANTABULOUS.
basically, its about how imperfection can be near to perfect , simply through LOVE.
And as for this case, its about mother love.
A villain kind of a story, yet super touching.
The part which really got me turned on was the fighting part.
Blood and all. Reality check, ull get to see the various stuntmen and the girl earned their cuts and bruises during the fights. excruciating pain no less.
HAPPY WATCHING!(:
When time is right ♥
10:06 PM
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
i was darn frustrated during e early morning today.
I purposely woke up way earlier to get myself to the ATM machine.
So as usual, somewhere in the middle of the month, i would draw out all the money tht ive been saving in my cash box at home and deposit them to my account.
The very initial machine i went to was out of order. yea, imagine how i felt at tht point of time, after the very long journey i made and ended up, worthless. what more, with the scorching weather today. hais.
So yea, no choice, i then walked a distance more to the other atm machine =)
Cash notes were safely deposited.
But, the coins were abit troublesome. perhaps, it was my mistake for being ignorant. hehs.
After i got hold of the receipt, i then checked my saving balance, and to my utter surprise, the $30 coins have yet been updated. So once again, i checked e receipt, if i did press the right number. and yes, i gave the right one. So with no delay, i called Kak Dirah up and explained to her abt it. She insisted me to check the balance once again after 8pm cos probably they need some time to get my coins being transacted. DOTS. how silly can i be. and i just remembered, the other time when bf accompanied me to deposit my coins saving, i didnt check my balance straight after but they were updated when i checked it again 2 days later. LOL!
So yea, hopefully, everthing would turn out a breeze(:
From there, i headed Library. Reached at around 930. Managed to follow the study plan schedule. After completed the both chapters, i straight away slept from 12pm to 1216 on tt table itself. lol! Soon after, i got up and went home for lunch(:
Thus, here i am, blogging. AND I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP RYTE NOW WHICH IVE YET TO OWN IT SINCE LIKE WHEN? SOME MONTHS AGO?! ahh!
But hold on, before that, i thought of posting some old photos here.
Don't ask me why. i Just felt like doing it. Really, when i looked through them again the other day, i was mesmerised. or wait, mybe, i was more to petrified. well yea, its been awhile since i flipped through e pictures of myself when i was still a toddler. HAHA. Really, i stoned while looking at them. haha.. And im sure, u will =)
Ain:
Kaseh.. Kaseh tngk brape sayang nye akak kat kaseh.
Kaseh:
Ahah eh kak. asal akak syg sangat kat kaseh dulu?
Felt like strangling her at tht point of time! grr! lol!
p/s: I noe im faaaat! haha
When i was small, i was just like,
bak kata pepatah melayu, seperti kera kene belacan, no doubt! haha (:
Im someone whos very manja to both ibu and ayah(:
Ayah, e sweetheart,
who'll always listen to evry ramblings i made, no matter how nonsence it is.
Ibu, e very best friend whom ill cry to whenever im faced with obstacles.
for instance, whenever i quarell with bf, ibu will b the 1st person whom ill go to and complain each and every single thing but sadly, ibu always say, 'akak, hilmi buat untuk kebaikan akak jugak kan' GRR!!
lol, i love her(:
Yea, i noe, i look horrible! haha.. (:
That was the time when my body was
overwhelmed with fats. LOL!
ahhh! i just love this pic loads. how i very wish i could once again take another shot with those cuties! haha.. and if possible, i really wanna adopt them as part of my family. haha(:
Can u see the fats bulging out from my tummy?
i wonder if those were baby fats OR food fats? HAHA(:
some glucose which has yet being converted into energy and thus, turned itself into
fatty acids and glycerol, at tht point of time.
haha lol!
Im missing those days.
And oh yes, i was once a mummy-daddy's gal and still is.
I can never get myself to imagine hows life without them.
Last of all, i miss Abg shamil. Ayah's bestfriend's son.
We were so close then. But as years passed, whenever we meet up during adilfitri, the least we'll do is smiling to each other. sad. well, thts life(:
p/s: To SISkaseh's fans out there, enough of seeing her toddler's pic? haha..kaseh: AKAK!!! ASAL G POST GMBAR2!!? CICAK BEGOK KAU, KAK!hahahaah! LOL!(:
Over the years......... peo change. we change.
BUT the feelings for each other NEVER change.
akak loves u, syg(:
Ok, i neeeed my sleeep ryte now before i head school afterwards.
Goodniight for later(:
When time is right ♥
1:58 PM
