Thursday, April 3, 2008
I couldnt sleep more after 2 hours of having it.
Thus, i carried myself up and did the algebra exercises instead.
Done with Arithmetic and indices. scored 65% and 86% respectively, woohoo(:Algebra's test shall only be completed after i had further explanation from the math teacher tmr. Today's night is just e preparation for tmr's class. and darn, ive like 21 more chaps to revise&practice each and evry single qns in
this book. Hopefully i could finish all up by June and start on 10 yrs series by then. Oh well, it seems like ive to strictly follow my study schedule this time round. argh!
24 hours is too little for me!can i just be the odd one amongst all?Anw, some little things suddenly ran tru my mind while i was doing my work.
BF was always there whenever i needed him,
yet i searched tranquility from other soul.BF has always been putting down his ego-s for me,
yet, i don seem to appreciate them tht i frequently accused him anyhow just to satisfy myself.BF was always there, loving and showing his care for me;
may not be by physically but always tru verbal words. Yet, every now and then, my impreached on him for having feelings for other girl never seemed to end tht i always show attitudes towards him.And the list goes on for if i were to rant everything down here, it'll nvr end.
Sometimes if i were to reflect the things i did, i guessed if i were to be with other guy, i'd have been dumped long ago. But, after 4 years, this relationship is still staying strong despite some sorrows we went tru b4.
BF:U, da, be confident with urself, that is when ull succeed. Berehat k syg. Health 1st. Stop pegang buku for today. And rest. Mkn ubat dan minum byk air k. Mwarks. U selalu di hati i :)I love him. and i miss him. Its been a week since i last met him. And i doubt we'll meet this week since im down with a bad flu.
(Yea, i noe i should be sleeping by now, but i just cant afford to)Tears suddenly trickled down my check upon recalling back what ibu has just told me hours ago while i was petted to bed. According to ibu, arwah mama who was my late maternal grandma loved me much, much more than anything else tht an hour b4 she closed her eyes, she actually asked ibu some questions despite having the trouble to even open up her mouth;
''Ain da buka puasa?".. "Ain da makan?" "kasi die makan.."I didnt noe tht till today eventho it had already been 3 years past. And the worst part was, i wasnt there when she let out her last breathe. I was 5 min late to reach tht ward. if only, if only i was a bit fast.. hais..
During her days....
Mama: "ain blajar btol2.. nnti da besar leh jadi doctor.. leh obatkan mak.."Being a mere 14 yr old gal, i didnt take her words tht seriously eventho deep down i noe she wants me so much to be a doc and her illness to be treated by me.
All i answered her was,
''insyaallah tp nk jd doc susah"I should have atleast give her some hopes! hais.
Im sure i'd have dissapoint her much if she were to know my previous Os results. hais.
Thus, ive made a point to make up for it.
I miss her. I miss my late maternal grandma terribly.
When time is right ♥
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